3rd June, 2009
“Friendship”; In the immortal words of George Washington, “Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation”.
How do we define true friends? How do separate those that lift us up from those that pull us down? How do we decide whether a friendship is worth salvaging or not? It’s hard in this life to put label on friends. Best friend, good friend, friend, acquaintance; how do we distinguish between them.
Being a gay guy isn’t easy. You meet someone today; they assume they’re your friend tomorrow. It’s not every single person you know that’s a friend. How come people just don’t get that? Sometimes I wonder maybe it’s just me? Maybe I’m the one who’s too fussy or too finicky? But as George Washington said, true friendship is a plant of slow growth. I think I’m going to stick to the advice of a man who went on to become the president of the United States of America.
It’s time to be choosy about who I call my friend. If people have got a problem with that, then that’s their deal. It’s my life, my rules; it’s all on me.
For Real
Belthazar
Obsession
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
2nd June, 2009
What is it with gay guys’ obsession with sex? It’s totally perplexing. I mean I know that guys are randy when they are young and the typical young gay man is three times more randy than the typical young straight man but come on! Are gay men not men? Don’t they get tired of the constant need to seek sex partner after sex partner. In this time with the prevalence of HIV, is there not a need to abstain from casual sex with multiple sex partners. What is it about sex a new guy that makes it more enjoyable than sex with an old one? Another thing I’ll need to ponder as I try to figure out my life
For Real
Belthazar
What is it with gay guys’ obsession with sex? It’s totally perplexing. I mean I know that guys are randy when they are young and the typical young gay man is three times more randy than the typical young straight man but come on! Are gay men not men? Don’t they get tired of the constant need to seek sex partner after sex partner. In this time with the prevalence of HIV, is there not a need to abstain from casual sex with multiple sex partners. What is it about sex a new guy that makes it more enjoyable than sex with an old one? Another thing I’ll need to ponder as I try to figure out my life
For Real
Belthazar
The Dawn of a New Day and a New Belthazar
Monday, June 1, 2009
1st June, 2009.
It’s the beginning of a new month. It’s also the dawning of a new me. Don’t understand? Allow me to clarify. See, due to recent events, I’ve been forced to re-evaluate my life and the choices I’ve made and tend to make. Before we get to deep, I bet you’re wondering who I am. Well, I’m a young guy; just your typical average everyday Nigerian young guy who enjoys going to the movies, hanging out with his pals and playing his Nintendo DS. Well not really. See I’m kind of odd to most people probably because I tend to spend so much time in my head. But enough about me. Let’s talk about what brought me to this point. So what’s going on in my life you may wonder? Where to start? Well, I’ve got one best friend who doesn’t understand the meaning of the word priorities; who isn’t comfortable unless he’s committed to about a zillion activities, a second best friend who has the obsessive need to get high whenever he can, a boyfriend (yep, I’m gay) who claims he loves me but yet feels the need to sleep with every Tom, Dick and Harry, a clique who sees me as the backup money bag, a job I don’t actually enjoy and so on and so on. All in all, the typical average life of a 20-something gay man. Life’s pretty eventful. But yet, I’m not happy. What is wrong with me? Why am I not happy? I’ve got a great job, good friends, in a relationship but yet I feel I lack something. What is this special thing that I lack? That’ll make me feel alive again. I’m been forced into this mundane existence where the simple things of life no longer provide me comfort. Well I’m sick of it. There has got to be a change. This marks the dawn of a new day. No longer will I strive to go with the flow. Life’s too short to deal with hassle of peer approval. It’s time for a revolution. Here’s to breaking the flow. It’s all on me. Always has been
For Real,
Belthazar
It’s the beginning of a new month. It’s also the dawning of a new me. Don’t understand? Allow me to clarify. See, due to recent events, I’ve been forced to re-evaluate my life and the choices I’ve made and tend to make. Before we get to deep, I bet you’re wondering who I am. Well, I’m a young guy; just your typical average everyday Nigerian young guy who enjoys going to the movies, hanging out with his pals and playing his Nintendo DS. Well not really. See I’m kind of odd to most people probably because I tend to spend so much time in my head. But enough about me. Let’s talk about what brought me to this point. So what’s going on in my life you may wonder? Where to start? Well, I’ve got one best friend who doesn’t understand the meaning of the word priorities; who isn’t comfortable unless he’s committed to about a zillion activities, a second best friend who has the obsessive need to get high whenever he can, a boyfriend (yep, I’m gay) who claims he loves me but yet feels the need to sleep with every Tom, Dick and Harry, a clique who sees me as the backup money bag, a job I don’t actually enjoy and so on and so on. All in all, the typical average life of a 20-something gay man. Life’s pretty eventful. But yet, I’m not happy. What is wrong with me? Why am I not happy? I’ve got a great job, good friends, in a relationship but yet I feel I lack something. What is this special thing that I lack? That’ll make me feel alive again. I’m been forced into this mundane existence where the simple things of life no longer provide me comfort. Well I’m sick of it. There has got to be a change. This marks the dawn of a new day. No longer will I strive to go with the flow. Life’s too short to deal with hassle of peer approval. It’s time for a revolution. Here’s to breaking the flow. It’s all on me. Always has been
For Real,
Belthazar
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